I have a confession: I’ve never worked on my own film before… And honestly, I’m really nervous.
Of course, I’ve collaborated on others on film projects, but I’ve never been in charge of my own narrative, from start to finish. And like I normally do, I’m panicking when there really is no need to panic. I’m sure that my film will turn out decent, but all of the unknown factors are making me nervous since I don’t exactly know the details right now. I’ll figure them out of course, but the fact that I don’t know right here right now is making me anxious.
My mind is rushing with thoughts like “How am I going to do this on my own? I doubt that I can,” “Who’s going to act in it? I don’t know that many people.” Then there’s so many genres to choose from… I love musicals, but that may be too difficult for me to handle, so I’m leaning more towards a Coming-of-Age film- perhaps an adaptation of my favorite book, Monday’s Not Coming- there’s just so many questions around my film that I don’t have answers to yet, and my anxiety tells me that I’ll never find answers to them, even though I know I will.
I am going to make a film. I don’t know what I want to do yet, but I know that it will take lots of effort and research, so that I can make my opening task the best that it can possibly be.